So I haven’t posted in a while – big fucking deal. I’ve had nothing to write. My mind is a blank slate. That’s not exactly true – my mind feels very fertile in the morning, and I feel like sitting right down and typing, but all of that energy is wasted with working. At home at night all I really want to do is veg.
I’m reading I Am Charlotte Simmons by Tom Wolfe and boy is it weird. I wish I had it in front of me now so I could find this quote. Wolfe is obsessed with two things: our generations’ proclivity for swearing which he snobbishly calls fuck patois. How goddamned obnoxious is that? He’s also obsessed with what he perceives as our overly informal and childish dress. There’s a drawn out scene where Charlotte has a moment of intellectual happiness in class when an admired lecturer recognizes her insightful comment on something. The professor, unlike the students, is dressed impeccably and described as a better, more unique person. When you look at the back of the book at the full portrait of Wolfe you make the simple leap that this egotistical jackass is describing himself. Some intellectual deity.
I thoroughly hate all of the characters. I feel like I’m reading Ayn Rand almost, except no one is as bad as her, or it, or whatever the hell an ‘Ayn’ is.
It’s almost Christmas and I’ve done nearly all my shopping online. Not bad, that. I hate crowds, I hate stores, I hate shopping. I’ve still a little more to do, and I guess I’ll do it tomorrow. I’m going to put off painting the house for Friday, I think. Another year nearly gone, again. Overall this year was just a space-filler. I don’t think anything significantly great happened to me this year, but nothing significantly bad, either. Let’s hope next year is a little more exciting, in a positive way.
I guess it’s a nice round number to help me make a clean break. I’m gonna make ’06 count. I’m not, however, looking forward to quitting smoking after New Year’s.
I’ve got to find a permanent place to live too. FUCK! Patois.
It is what it is
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
This side of the blue
Spewed out by Will at 10:15
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
6 comments:
strange as it is, i only bought one item on the internet this year, and it wasn't even from stupid.com.
no comment on ms. rand. don't play dumb, everybody knows that she was a pill stealing robot.
She uses those pills for fuel.
It's easy to not smoke when you're around people from whom you want to hide your smoking habit. For me, it's JP's family.
But maybe if you just spent a lot of time around straight edge kids. Wait...that would make you want to smoke MORE. Ok, maybe supermodels. Or Foghorn Leghorn.
But seriously, start weaning yourself off of them now...the first of the year is approaching quickly, Will. Please see Katie's blog to see how I really feel about this no smoking thing.
No smoking does suck a LOT! You really are better off beginning your weaning now. Try not to smoke during daylight. When it's time to quit just don't go out and sleep a lot.
You will sleep a lot. I don't know if there are any other quitters out there, but sleeping is a major part of the process. Quitting's depressing!
It's like they're that really fun friend that's just a piece of shit most of the time. Like being friends with a liar/ klepto that's also really cool and funny. You know you shouldn't hang out with them, but fuckin' A- you just want to!
I've been a nocturnal smoker for years. Unfortunately, I've never (permanently) given up the night-time stogies. Or the boozing stoges.
But being an exclusive nocturnal smoker has kept me the picture of health i am today. I still run at least 15 miles a week at a cheetah's pace. Nevermind the chest pains and chronic cough. That's from something else, I'm sure.
Good luck anyway.
Wait, fuck that, let's all keep smoking and quit in 2007 instead. C'mon, it'll be fun!
Hey y'all- I have a new url: joblessbecauseofthis.blogspot.com
Post a Comment