I've been swinging wildly between total grey and faded white, flattening, and nauseous depression and an unexplainable elation these past few days. I really miss Efi a lot, and I don't know how to rationalize it away. I don't know when I'll graduate either, to add to my sunny demeanor. The only thing I don't get is the total elation part. I feel insanely euphoric, strangely, sometimes. I suppose it's just chemical reactions when you come down to it.

Pip and I are discussing making a zine. This is my new project to feel excited about. Totally. If anyone has ideas for me just email me at willdoran@fastmail.ca or one of my other accounts. It's going to be literature review/fiction/rants or editorials/stories/music reviews/art etc. This is at first thought, you know. Maybe we'll specify a goal or a theme or whatever. For now we haven't focused to much. I'm excited, but I'll probably be depressed again in like a half hour.